Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Oh Toronto!

I made my move and I am here in Toronto, taking on the next step to pursuing this career of yes, no and  maybe.
Oh Toronto, the city that actually makes me question every turn and step that I make. Not because I don't think I am going to make it: in fact I know I am. It is just a matter of when. WHEN? it seems that is the biggest question written on everyone's wide eyes.
My heart and soul misses home, but I know that I have to be here. Not as fighter trying to make things work but as a human with a thirst to learn and there is just something about this city that makes me feel like I need to stay: when home is calling me back.
I should mention today is only day 8: HOW HIPSTER EMO OF ME.
My beauty review today is different from any post:
This today is inner beauty
In my time of getting ready to leave I learned quickly that I was wanted where ever I was. I have been longing for that forever (I think that all artist do) But, I met with an agent here and he said I did the the best and most I could do for the city I was in.
Do you ever feel that when you are getting ready to leave for anything life gives you all the things that your looking for and makes your question leaving or staying?
----My cousin and I were talking and she said it best " you put the ball in motion and that is why these things are happening, so your meant to go and just keep that ball rolling." I do feel that the ball has stopped, I guess it eventually will. I just have to try harder.
----My next advice is "good things fall apart so better things can fall together"
Be humble and be kind to all.  If the kindness and support of friends and family were not around I don't know if I would make it.  It could be as simple as a friend liking a status on facebook to something like a friend spending the day with me to show me around the city during her busy schedule.------ I am so sorry to any of those that have ever felt neglected because of my schedule,
My last piece of beauty advice came from one of my best friends: " You can't move on until you accept what you have." This one took a while, it is one thing to know the circumstances or gifts that your given-and another to completely accept what you have.
Thanks for your time
NIKOLA